YOU’VE GOT THE WRONG GUY!!
by Sean Miramontes “Shovelhead Seany”
Life was good in ‘05 when I bought my rollin’
chassis from a friend. I was so excited. I had only ridden a Harley once
before, though I had owned other bikes.
I worked in construction and believed that if you put in your 40 hours,
you can do anything you want the rest of the time. And I did. I was drinking,
surfing every day in the Monterey Bay a couple of blocks from my house, and
getting into trouble.
But you never know what life is gonna throw at
you.
That December my girlfriend Macmillan told me
she was pregnant. In an instant I went from a 35-year old boy to a man. I had
never had a dad, so all I wanted was to be there for my own child. This was my
new goal in life and it changed everything. I stopped screwing around in my
spare time and also decided to stop breaking my back for someone else and
instead work toward getting my General Contractor’s License.
For some time my arm and shoulder would hurt,
but I chalked it up to pounding the hammer. I would also get chills even when
it was 90 degrees outside. In June of ‘06 though, I started having back pains
like I’ve never experienced before. I had to sleep on the couch sitting up
because I didn’t want to disturb Macmillan. The pains were unbelievable. A pain went through me like a bolt of lightning one
time when I twisted my back. Three days after that I couldn’t walk. I was
paralyzed from the waist down. Macmillan rushed me to the ER, where I got an
MRI.
I’ll never forget that day, May 15, 2006. I lay
on my back for the first time in months, Mill sitting at the foot of my bed
seven months pregnant. The doctor came in and gave me the old good news-bad
news routine. “You have a strong back,” he said, “ but the bad news is that
it’s covered in cancer from neck to toe -- probably lymphoma.” I looked over at
Mill as her head dropped. Then I said to the doctor, “You and the cancer have
got the wrong guy! I’m a fighter!” Nothing like a good scrap now and then, and
this fight was for real and it was on.
I was admitted to the hospital and started meds,
radiation and chemo right away. Mill would come in at the start of visiting
hours every day. When I saw her smile no matter how hard it was for her, I knew
what I had to do, she was the best reminder. She and my good friend Benji
helped me in ways they’ll never know, no matter how much I thank them. I guess
staying alive would be the ultimate thank you.
After a week, on my last day I finally met my
real doctor, Dr. Pomeroy. He walked in with a bowl of cut-up fruit (don’t ask).
Stuffing fruit into his mouth with his hand, he said, “We finally meet. I’ve
been avoiding you all week. I hear you’re a great guy that has a lot on his
plate, and frankly I’ve been trying to figure out how to save your life.” I
said, “Don’t worry about my end, I’ve got it handled!”
He said, “ Good, because you have Stage 4
Lymphoma, with a softball sized tumor surrounding your spine, and it’s eating
away at your sciatic nerve.” I’m really mad at this point. My whole world was
crashing down. The reality hadn’t kicked in yet, but I knew the battle was just
beginning. I asked him how long before I would walk again. “That’s up to you,”
he said, still stuffing fruit in his mouth. He was a cool dude, though, and
also said to me, “You and I are going to know each other for the rest of your
life.”
The next day I got my crutches and hobbled down
my street despite having no feeling in my legs -- walking on instinct and will
-- and I went to see the ocean. All the way, I was thinking, “There’s no way in
hell I’m going be a victim of this disease!”
Everyday Benji would come over to check on me
and bring whatever I needed. Twice a week for six months, he drove me for chemo
treatments, hung out with me, then took me home after I was fully marinated. I
tried driving there myself once, and the doctor got really upset with me since
I had no feeling in my legs. He said, “Who cares about you! What if you hit
some kid?” I didn’t try that again!
On August 26, 2006, my beautiful son Mason was born.
We looked the same -- hairless. After chemo was finished in November, I was
told I was in the clear. Other than not being able to walk, which had its own
challenges, I was glad it was over. I won the fight!
Or so I thought.
The next April the old pains that I knew all too
well were back. Dr. Pomeroy ordered another MRI, then broke the news that the
cancer had returned and it was in my neck. He wanted me to start chemo right
away, but then told me that the only thing that was going to save me now was a
bone marrow transplant, and that we had to start looking for a donor. Round 2
with this crap. Now I was really pissed off. But this time I have my son’s eyes
looking back at me. This was war!
Meanwhile the bills were stacking up. We had one
yard sale after another selling practically everything we had. I even had to
sell my surf boards since I couldn’t surf anymore. That was hard, but selling
my rollin’ chassis was harder. Having to sell it was breaking my heart because
deep down I was trying to hold on to hope. I put it on Craig’s list and got a
call from a man named Jeff Kempshall from JLK Precision in San Bruno. He wanted
to come down to pick up the bike, but was going to have a Harley mechanic named
Dale come check it out first. I had just met Dale! He was a neighbor of mine.
After Dale inspected the bike, he called Jeff and told him it all looked good.
Dale told me not to worry, that when I get better, he would help me build my
dream bike. That gave me hope after all. A little sacrifice now might be worth
it in the long run.
Jeff showed up that night at my door. He was a
big, intimidating biker dude who had been in Vietnam. I told him why I was
selling the bike, and he almost crumbled. Then he told me how he’d been
stepping out of his own box lately and was in a play at a church in Half Moon
Bay (about 50 miles north). He invited me and my family to come see it. The
church was on Miramontes Drive. “Then I have to come!” I told him. “Miramontes
is my last name.” I’m a believer in signs and like to go with that type of
flow. I never like to pass up opportunities, if the flow is right. So Mill,
Mason and I went and had a great time. A few days later Jeff and his wife
Sherall showed up at my door with diapers and food for us. God bless those two.
I was riding my bicycle to chemo trying to build
my legs, even though I couldn’t feel them. I also focused on getting my
contractor’s license and studied my ass off while going through chemo and
radiation. I had failed the exam a few times before, but this time I was
determined.
I had asked my sister Krysel to take the bone
marrow test and, miraculously, she was a perfect match! A big blow to my buddy,
Lymphoma. All Krysel’s and my childhood arguments were out the door. Now she‘s
my hero, as well as my son’s, although he doesn’t know it yet. She donated her cells on her birthday,
September 27, and the nurses even brought her a birthday cake. It took six
hours and was pretty painful for her.
What a sister!
The bone marrow transplant, which is a blood
transfusion, was set for the next day. Before the procedure they gave me
powerful chemo and radiation treatments that took me right up to the point of
death. It’s almost like they kill you before they put in the new cells. People
with a bone marrow transplant are basically reborn, so in a sense my sister and
I have the same birthday now, and weird as it seems, we have identical DNA.
While I was in the hospital, I asked for a
stationary bike to be put in the room so I could bike everyday and build up my
strength. I wanted to have the healthiest body possible when I went for the
transplant. The chemo included steroids that would jack me up, so I would bike
until I was sweaty and hot. I also studied for my exam the whole time. No TV
for me. The nurses were amazed.
For the next three months I could not go outside
in the sun and also had to wear a respirator to avoid germs and spores. I got a
test date for December when I wouldn’t need the respirator anymore. I passed
the damned thing and got my General Contractor’s License. I finally put cancer
on its ass. I sure was proud.
A hard thing that happened right after my
transplant, though, was my Australian shepherd, Cedar, died. His legs had been
giving out and he was very weak. Cedar loved Mill and followed her everywhere,
but when she went away for a short time, he died. I felt like Cedar had taken
my cancer away when he died, and like he didn’t want to be a drain on us.
It would take about a year and a half to see if
the transplant was successful. And even then doctors don’t want to utter the
other C word -- Cured -- for fear of
jinxing it. One year later I could walk, though, and I felt healthy enough to
go back to work, even though it was against the wishes of my bone marrow
doctor, Dr. Lowsky. I also dug my way out of debt and started saving for my
dream bike that I felt I deserved!
I told Dale I wanted an “old school” look with a
kick-start only. He advised me to get a Paughco rigid wishbone frame. I called
up my buddy Jeff and had him get me one for me. When I picked up my frame from
his shop, it felt like another blow to the cancer!
Dale showed up at my house with a Chrome horse
4-speed tranny with a 3” belt drive, along with many other parts. I didn’t know
a damn thing about mechanics, much less building a chopper. I was a carpenter.
I didn’t even have a full ratchet set, for God’s sake!
I spent every day in my garage fabricating with
my sawsall and grinder, dreaming about the first ride. The search was on now
for a motor. One day I saw Dale down the street looking bummed out. I asked him
what was up. “Fast Harry died,” he said. I didn’t know who that was, but told
him, “Sorry Bro,” and left him to his thoughts. I had been so close to death I
didn’t want any part of it. A few days later Dale came to my house and told me
the 96” S&S motor in the bike Harry had been riding was available and still
good. He asked if I wanted to buy it. Being a believer in signs and that God
has a plan, I had some doubts and thought about the negative energy that could
come with the motor from the bike Harry had died on, but I bought it anyway and
was told that Harry would have wanted it that way. He had been a great biker.
I finally have the heart to my bike. Dale
brought over his tools and borrowed a welder from his friend Ken from Ken’s
Auto Body. I had to learn to weld, though I had some experience from working
for the railroad after high school. Ken’s cousin Mark gave me a great-looking
Mustang tank, too.
My dream of building my own bike was getting
close. I worked day and night, assembling and disassembling. It was looking good, but had a new look, and
I wanted the old school look. Dale agreed to trade my S&S for his
Shovelhead -- a 96” with dual plug heads, STD polished case, S&S barrels
with a stroker kit. He brought his bike over, which he also had built from
scratch, and we switched. I pulled everything off, rattle-canned it flat black,
then started reassembling. The thing was a monster. Dale and I kept saying what
a BMF it was!
It was now New Year’s, January 1, 09’, a year
and a half post-transplant. Dale came over to help with the finishing touches
on the bike. We gave thanks to the Harley Gods and “saged” the bike -- a Native
American Indian ceremony using sage to keep away negative spirits. Then we gave
the bike its life blood -- oil. I was just a few kicks away from coming out of
hell and into a whole new life.
In one final kick, she fired up! I was screaming
and crying, running around trying to find my helmet. I was so nervous when I
got on it. It was loud and vibrating, it had a 3’ open belt drive. The sound of
a shovelhead is like no other. I got on the beast and went around the block,
slowly. My dog Wrangle chased me the whole way, barking and biting at me and
the bike. When I got back to my house, I was crying and shaking because I knew
I won! I won! I beat cancer for good. Screw you, Cancer, you got the wrong guy.
Life can be auspicious. You have to open to it,
even be thankful for the tragedies and the pain. It’s funny how it all works.
Cancer isn’t the end, it’s only the beginning. Never give up hope, fear is the
real disease. Sometimes you have to hit the throttle, or you’re just not
living.
I just take it day by day, which isn’t as easy
as it sounds. Macmillan -- a biker chick now -- and Mason and I are doing well,
and I am cancer free. We also have a new life on the way. Another chance to be
a good dad. Without my family, life would be meaningless and impossible, and I
might not be alive at all. Or able to ride my bike! Now we “live to ride and
ride to live strong.” Let’s roll!
